Blast from the past

Recently I was asked by a good friend of mine, "Ashton, on a scale of one to ten how does your present relationship rank among your others" and while I cannot tell you completely how I answered that question, it did spark some thought that I would like to share.

How do you measure your level of love for someone?? As a matter of fact, if you CAN measure your level of love, what do you base it off of?

I sat pondering the question for a few moments, running through my past relationships before finally giving an answer. I went through the loves, the loss, the happy and the sad. It was a such a head rush going down memory lane like that.  Lost in my whirlwind of thoughts I came to the conclusion that as I move forward in my life, my love for the person I am with grows stronger. I love myself a little more each day, I love the person that I am with a little more each day and ultimately I love life a little more each day. The time that I have spend with my current love and past loves has always been the same.  Now the things that we have done and the experiences we have had will always be different, but the feeling of love, that remains the same for me.

I may love deeper and stronger, but I do not love any one person more than the next. I still love ALL (except 2) of my ex's and I hope to have them apart of my life for well... ever.

Now many of you might think, "Uh, I would never talk to my ex again" and while that is true for two of my ex's, I feel like every single one was brought into my life to teach me something and I did love each and every one of them with all of my heart (p.s. I have called less than 10 people my "boyfriend" in my whole life).

I also took in experiences, happiness and drama.. however I still can't put a level on how happy I was with someone. The drama is usually near the breakup, so it always seems crazy. The experiences are all so different and fun, it's impossible for me to truly say who I had more fun with.

I'm not sure, how would you answer this question?

Economic Stimulus Check

I was sent this via email by a friend of mine. I think it's hilarious.. allow me to share:

Sometime this year,  we taxpayers will again receive another 'Economic
Stimulus' payment.

This is indeed a very exciting program,  and I'll explain it by
Using a Q & A format:
 
   Q.  What is an 'Economic Stimulus' payment?
 
  A.  It's money the federal government will send to taxpayers.
 
 
  Q. Where will the government get this money?
 
  A.  From taxpayers.
 
 
  Q.  So the government is giving me back my own money?
 
  A.  Only a smidgen of it.
 
 
  Q.  What is the purpose of this payment ?
 
  A.  The plan is for you to use the money to purchase a
High-definition TV set,  thus stimulating the economy.
 
 
  Q.  But isn't that stimulating the economy of China?
 
  A.  Shut up.
 
 
Below is some helpful advice on how to best help the U.S. Economy by
spending your stimulus check wisely:       

*  If you spend the stimulus money at Wal-Mart,  the money will
go to China  or Sri Lanka.

*  If you spend it on gasoline,  your money will go to the
Arabs.

*  If you purchase a computer, it will go to India , Taiwan or China. 

*  If you purchase fruit and vegetables, it will go to Mexico ,  Chile, Honduras and Guatemala.
      
*  If you buy an efficient car, it will go to Japan  or Korea.

*  If  you purchase useless stuff, it will go to Taiwan.

*  If you pay your credit cards off, or buy stock, it will go to management bonuses and they will hide it offshore.
  
  Instead, keep the money in America  by:
  
  1)  Spending it at yard sales, or     
 
  2)  Going to ball games,  or   
 
  3)  Spending it on prostitutes,  or     
 
  4)  Beer or     
 
  5) Tattoos.
 
   (These are the only American businesses still operating in the U.S. )

Conclusion:
 
Go to a ball game with a tattooed prostitute you met at a yard
sale  and drink beer all day!
 
No need to thank me,  I'm just glad I could be of help.

Strapped

This is an old post from another blog that I had, one that I am trying to shut down. I am reposting it over here because I do love the concept of this movie and it was really fun to be on set for a day doing makeup!!

While searching Craigslist yesterday or maybe the day before I came across an ad, "Seeking Makeup Artist for Feature Film.. " or something close to that. It was very intrigued, so I emailed the person.

Less than 5 minutes later I was being booked for this movie, Nice.

This morning I showed up on set ready to do makeup and much to my surprise everyone was truly nice and accepting. I didn't know much about the movie, so I did some research.. Here's what I found:

http://www.indiegogo.com/Strapped

Now the movie linked on that is NOT the movie that they are filming today.. clearly because they are filming it today. However, the description of the movie is very interesting. It makes me want to watch it, I'm bummed that I am not going makeup for the entire shooting of this production  :(

About: (show all) Adam, a young hustler, wanders into an old, labyrinthine apartment building and cannot find his way out. A chameleon who can change his persona to match anyone he meets, Adam encounters several sexually-charged men who lead him on a journey of the soul. Only when he has untied all of the knots can Adam leave the building and begin to enter the world of adulthood – should he still want to. Dreamlike, erotic, and at times darkly comic, this night-in-the-life of a young man’s coming of age is an ... Adam, a young hustler, wanders into an old, labyrinthine apartment building and cannot find his way out. A chameleon who can change his persona to match anyone he meets, Adam encounters several sexually-charged men who lead him on a journey of the soul. Only when he has untied all of the knots can Adam leave the building and begin to enter the world of adulthood – should he still want to. Dreamlike, erotic, and at times darkly comic, this night-in-the-life of a young man’s coming of age is an original and provocative take on intimacy, desire, and what it means to be a gay man in the 21st Century. What makes this project different: Not your tired old Hustler Movie. About how desire shapes identity, how intimacy cannot be avoided, and the heart taking root in itself. Great script for actors, dialogue cracks. Powerful cast, high production values. A fresh approach to love scenes -- powerful, honest, erotic, true. This is a queer indie like no other. TLA Releasing has first-look rights for acquisition & distribution.

Polaroids and Best Friends.

It amazes me how simple my lifes pleasures are. All I need are my good friends, good food and even better shoes. (We're both wearing suede boots in this picture.)

Thank you to Kara, my darling companion in crime for being truly amazing, inspirational and just a woman after my own heart. You are so talented and beautiful. I would not trade you for the world.

Got to love polaroid... oh yes, I'm bringing it back.

Go forth and begin your lifes adventure.